30 weeks pregnant. Oh my dear...I just can't believe the time has passed so fast.
Now my baby it's a real baby. I mean just look at this picture I took from Expressive health website:
It is a bit scary thinking that there is a real person inside me growing.
At the same time I am looking forward to meet my new baby more and more.
I really wonder now what kind of baby my baby will be. I hope the baby will be an easy baby but who knows...I mean with my daughter being fussier and fussier by day I could really use a "text book baby".
But now talking seriously all I want is for my baby to be healthy and arrive safety on this world. I am scared though....
At the moment I don't know if I will have a c-section or a natural birth.
Part of me wants to be a natural birth because I really want it to be normal and relaxed although the midwife told me that I will have to have an assisted birth because I had an emergency c-section with my daughter. I just want my husband to be able to cut the umbilical cord too...
However as I never had a natural birth as you can understand I am kind of scared...
Part of me wants to have a c-section as I had it before and get it all done. Chances are for things to go well and at least we will know the date and the hour when it will happen. Like mum says...you already have a cut on the belly so it's not like its going to be that hard...but...what if I want to have another baby later on? What if?
And also the epidural didn't really work during my c-section so I could feel the doctors rumbling through my belly basically. I was basically feeling the pain even though they pomp drugs into me..lots...Even after the operation...that night was awful! The pain was so bad they had to give me morphine. So seriously I am not...I just don't want all that to happen again.
I would love to hear from you ladies though. If you experienced both or a natural birth would really love to hear some nice things about the natural birth.
Anyway I am trying and trying not to worry too much as if I worry I'm definitely going to cry. And I already cry too much. I will try to be as positive as possible and take my life one day at the time.